Milestone

Just for the sake of clarity, this is a post about my "relationships with people," so treat it as such.

Not that it's of any particular great intrest to any of you, but I just stumbled upon a realization. I have finally recovered.

I have been considering myself damaged for some time. I broke up with my last girlfriend in November of '05. I was young then. Yes, it was 7 months ago. However, so much has changed inside me in those 7 months. I have definately grown. Soon after the breakup, Nicole moved to Tennessee. So, I had some issues there that I had to work through. While still in the midst of those, I got myself mentally involved with Emily. After much back-and-forth, it didn't work out. While I was still working through that, Taylor came up again. Then that all went to hell, and I finally just said, to hell with it all, I quit. Although I have since learned that I definately did not quit, that was probably the best thing for me at the time. I have finally worked through all my shit. I've gone over it all in my head countless times. And it's finally settled down.

Yes, that's right, folks. I have reached a new equilibrium.

I can finally stop telling myself that I'm 'not ready' for a relationship. I am no longer 'not ready.'

I've been on a roller coaster these past 7 months. All I can hope now is that somehow, I've emerged healthier for it.

God, I hope so. I guess we'll see.